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IVE GOT SIMS 3!!!!!! :D:D:D:D
I love it when they're angry, then they start stomping their feet and cloud bubbles appear above them HAHAHAHA yeah i know that was in the very 1st Sims, yes it's been that long since ive played.

Dee's an angel really, a Sims VIP member too. We've been spending mon and tues mornings for 2 wks in a row! Breakfast ( I love waking up early for breakfast ) then lepak and lotsa cranky shizz. I'm gna miss this when she starts sch, which is in 2 weeks! :( Thank god for Sims3!!!!! Goodbye world, ill be disappearing into the world of Sims. And, salsa as well. Ive set my mind to conquering the vegas routine, it's insane but im gna do it! Havent felt this much motivation in a long while, i rmb the last time i had this feeling was during my first SYF in 2004. That's 6 yrs ago :O Well, it's a rly good feeling and im glad there's finally something positive about me. Counting down 26 days, lets go!

Ive also found someone who's got the same story to tell. Crazy buddy!
Finally, someone who knows how it feels. <3 

Sims outzz.

Lyns asked me about it today so i told her the whole story. Repeating the story to myself reminded me of the sadness but i felt rather silly about it. How did i get here? It just sad how the one thing that i thought would never go wrong (yes, some delusion i know. still, perfect), albeit was already wrong in itself, had just totally screwed up into a clump of mess i can barely figure out. Ive asked enough questions, sought enough advice, but i reckon it's just gna be one of those things in life that i'll never figure out. Bringing it up again just makes me feel like screaming, i used to feel like crying, but now the feeling's changing. I feel exasperated. Like what john wrote on one of his posts; we all get tired of waiting, but the thing is, we'll never stop waiting. Besides, the start to my summer's told me there's nth to wait for. It feels like im reading a book with no ending, when reading's already a chore to me. This is a really weird feeling, a little bit of sadness, anger, frustration, bitterness and crankiness but most of all i feel really jaded. I wish i could confess all of this just to find out im not the only one feeling this way, that'll be such a consolation. At least if im crazy ive got a buddy, noone wants to be lonely right?

Dee's gotten me back on track! Assss always, srsly what wld i do without her oh cheezeballs. She's got some pretty cranky shit stirred up in me, mabeleemay and her crazy ideas yet again. Yesyes. Anything beats a whiny sad and sobbing weakling, no? And no, i am not emo by nature! Or at least i wish to believe so just to please myself, it helps!

Gotta get over these travelling withdrawals, wake up every morning hoping i was in another country. Anywhere, anywhere but here. Anywhere that will take me faraway from these responsibilities. I'm not ready to get old and get boring, but i feel like i am when i here. Could you blame me? Well, EDIT cos i refuse to be the pessimist im claimed to be. So, here's to facing a whole lot of crap and enjoying it!

Oh wowwww goes cassie.
It's gna be a helluva ride!
-MLM

 

I just wish we could've been more honest. 

 dont really know what this song means actually, kinda got my own interpretation of it. but owells it's playing on repeat. that seems to be the problem nowadays, dont really know what anything really means anymore. just can't figure. wish so much more was said, done, maybe not said, but definitely done. feel like typing so much more here but the emotions seem to be getting in the way. havent been able to translate those thoughts into words without sounding like an absolute psycho. guess somethings are better kept secret, nothing really matters anymore does it?


drink beer (a cider wld be good)
be merry ( or at least keep sane)
dont sweat the small stuff ( rmb, nth rly matters anymore)
- MLM.

I'm really supposed to be studying right now. But no, ive come to take refuge here once again, like i always do when im stress/happy/sad/!@#$%??? Whatever it takes to get my mind off things, or onto screen, yeah yknow. 


Rumour has it that John Mayer's a player?!?!! I'm not really a tabloids person so i dont really know what's going on in entertainment world but i really hope those are just rumours! Stuff that are untrue and people say just because they're jealous. He writes such good lyrics and stuff that i can really relate to, if it's all nothing but lies to appeal to the masses then oh what a hypocrite. But as for now, im sticking to believing people are envious of his good looks and career and he's the john mayer as in his songs. 

I realised i buy many pretty clothes but ive stopped taking photos in them. Ive stopped camwhoring! :( I think ive become so busy that i hardly go out to hang chill anymore. Hence, the lack of photos. See, this is what becomes of an SMU student. Oh beegeezz. Time for life, after the 17th. 

 
Hi, i am a Smugger. With.. lotsa issues. Off to Glee club now. Gdnight. 

Times like these i wish i stayed near gardens, like a walkable distance from it at least, so many people i can just call and meet, have a syrup limau, jom rant and cry a whole lot, then everything will just feel fine. How dyou get rid of a feeling a thought that never seems to leave you. No matter how much you talk about it, how much you cry over it, how many things you pack yr life with just so you wouldn't think about it.

So bloody haunting.
-MLM

One tree hill never fails me, used to love peyton but now that she's gone i kinda see myself in brooke. <3 the storyline, to whoever the script writer is, kudos to you!

It's like some joke, for the first time i get real, i get trashed. I guess it's back to where i started. Alone and being awesome alone.

-MLM